If I told you I was a fan of Blood On The Dance Floor what would you think of me? Is what you’re thinking part of this list?

A.) She’s a 12 year old.

B.) She’s a “Scene Kid.”

C.) She’s immature and/or stupid.

or

D.) She cuts herself.

I ask you this because those are the assumptions people make about me every time I say that I am, in fact, a fan of BOTDF.

If you think that the list above describes me or if you think it describes everyone who is a fan of BOTDF, please read on.

A.) I am not 12. I am 19 going on 20. I have no idea why so many people insist on saying everyone who likes this band is 12. Oh and also what the hell is wrong with being 12? We were all 12 once and I for one was not a horrible person when I was 12.

B.) First off, let me say that I have no issue with anyone who identifies themselves as being scene. There is nothing wrong with that. Every single person on this planet has the right to dress/act/express themselves however they want to as long as they aren’t hurting anyone. Secondly, I am not a scene kid. I don’t look like a scene kid, I don’t act like a scene kid and guess what? None of the people I know who like BOTDF are scene kids either. SO contrary to popular belief you can like the band without being part of the scene culture.

C.) I don’t know how one goes about judging how mature they are so why don’t I just give you a few facts about me and let you decide for yourself.

1. I can cook for myself/do my own laundry.                                

2. I manage my own bank account, crafts website and Paypal account.

3. I don’t start or get involved in Facebook drama.

4. I’ve never been in trouble with the schools I went to, never been in trouble with the police and I never got grounded by my parents.

5. I know how and when to stand up for myself. I also know violence is never an answer.

6. I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke and I can honestly say that I only drink on occasion and when I do I don’t get wasted.

 Basically, I’m a goody-goody. The only rebellious things about me are my taste in music and a little underage drinking. So you can decide for yourself if you think I’m mature or not. Oh also, I’m NOT saying that anyone who does/doesn’t do the things I mentioned is immature. Maturity depends on how someone is as a person. I’m just trying to give whoever may read this something that they can base my maturity off of.

As far as my intelligence goes, I feel confident in saying that I’m not stupid. I got all A’s and B’s in high school except for two of my math classes. (I got C’s in those.) I took AP English my Junior year and Dual Enrollment English my Senior year, I got a 24 on my ACT and graduated with honors. I got accepted to every college I applied to. I’m not trying to brag here, I’m just trying to clear up this misconception that all BOTDF fans must be stupid.

D.) I don’t self harm. I would be lying if I told you I never had but for the record all of that happened before I even became a fan of BOTDF. In fact at the time that I was self harming I was listening to Top 40 radio and Disney stars, so I don’t believe that music has much, if anything, to do with whether or not someone self harms. Keep that in mind next time you decide that someone must be a self harmer if they listen to a certain band.

I’m not trying to make you a fan of the music I like.

I’m not trying to make you accept me.

I’m not trying to stop you from judging me, that’s just human nature.

I’m just hoping that maybe if you ever start to say that everyone who likes a certain thing MUST be the same, you’ll stop and really think about what it is you’re saying. Would you like it if people made assumptions about you based on how they think the people in your fanbase act?

-Elly Amethyst, proud member of the Slash Gash Terror Crew.

I hate making decisions. Hate it.

I'm always afraid I'm making the wrong choice and right now is no exception.

I'm trying to decide whether I should go to APSU (the college I picked out) in the Fall.

At first, I was certain that was what I wanted to do but now I don't know.

A lot has changed.

1. When I first chose this school I was planning to major in Journalism, now I'm planning to major in Business and I can do that at

other schools for less money.

2. I had made arrangements to room with someone I knew but now that isn't going to work out. (Which means I would be going into the school

alone which is scary to me because it takes me forever to make friends.)

3. Since choosing this school I decided to try to run my own crafts business, and my college dorm room would

not be the ideal place for me to try to create candles and home decorations.

So now I'm throwing around the idea of going to a community college instead.

But there are some problems with that too.

1. I don't have a license, a car, or anyone who can drive me to classes. So I would

have to put off starting school until I A. Save enough money from making crafts to

buy a car. B. Learn how to drive that car ( which means overcoming the panic attacks that come with my driving.)

Oh and of course C. Pass my driver's test. So it would probably be the fall of 2014 before I could start school.

2. Not going away to school this Fall means having to live with my parents, because at this point I'm not financially independent.

Which means I'm a 19 year old that still has to check in with her parents about everything.

I have no idea what to do. I feel like I'll be miserable at university but I also don't want to bet everything on the crafts business

making me enough money to get a car and be able to drive to community college.

Advice?

How the hell do I talk to my parents about all this?

I'm starting up an online craft store (Elly Amethyst Creations) in January! (No solid date yet but I'll keep you posted.)

I'll be selling homemade candles, quote signs and other home decorations once it gets going.

I'm super excited, hopefully I'll be able to make some money to put toward college in the fall.

Here is the link to where I'll be listing/selling the items in January: EllyAmethyst.Webstore.com

nothing is up there yet but you could always save the link for when I do get everything up and

running.  As soon as I get some products done I'll post some pictures for everyone to check out.

It would be great if some of you could like the

Elly Amethyst Creations Facebook Page:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Elly-Amethyst-Creations/425835947480766

There's also a twitter account you could follow: https://twitter.com/EA_Creations

Either way you would be getting the latest updates and helping me spread the word

about my business. Thanks for reading!